Life 2009

One thing I hate to do the most nowadays is to Blog about my life. I feel that my life and my writing are two separate entities. The biggest problem with that thought process is that when my life isn’t going quite the way that it should be, I tend to not have the drive to write as much. Writing is one of my favorite things to do, because it pushes me to do research on something I may not have much knowledge about, or has me talking about something that I DO know a lot about, and helps inform others. Sitting here unable to write a true entry, though, has me down. Let me explain, briefly.

I, as you know, enjoy video games a lot. But, I will admit right now, I haven’t played a video game since the start of 2009. Many of you may be thinking, “Hey, that’s great, you’re breaking the addiction!”. That’s exactly what I’m NOT thinking. Video games are my leisure fun activity. Everyone has them, that one is mine. To have not played any in a week is killer. Basically because it means I haven’t had much time to actually enjoy the last of my time off.

Then, yesterday, I woke up after a terrible, short night of sleep to find myself dizzy as all hell, and throwing up. So I was forced to call in sick to work. I slept 18 hours yesterday, and then woke up today ready to take on the world. I start up my truck, and find that there is a layer of ice thicker than anything I’ve ever had before on it, and my defroster isn’t working properly. Scraping it did no good whatsoever. So I, once again, had to call in to work. That’s two days in a row. If they don’t kill me the next time I work, it’ll be a miracle. Plus, I now have to bring my truck in to get it fixed, which, I will bet, will cost me a pretty penny.

There’s a saying: “People who are always upbeat have more friends. Be depressed, and you lose them all.” I heard it not more than a week ago, and I hated to hear it, because I seem to be more downbeat in my life than anything. I know that I’m paying for it, but, I see life differently than others. I see it for what it is, not what it should be. And I will always pay for that.

Give me a day or two. I have the next two days off from work, since I have school again (and I’m not sure if being off from work is exactly the best thing to happen right now). Just bear with me a little bit longer.